the days turn into years

This old photograph

I sit here in my sweatpants, fingering the rugged corners of this old photograph, writing the indescribable emotion that I feel inside. I can't explain it. The only words that come to mind are "she's lost her will, time is standing still", yet I burst into tears upon hearing that song. Where did the time go? the forever puzzling question that I can never understand. How did hours and days turn into months and years?

My eyes refuse to leave this 3-year old picture. I looked so happy. Desperately, I rack my memories for what I could possibly be feeling in this photo, a feeling that I am no longer acquainted with.

It's chilly today. Curled in a ball on this ice-cold chair, I weep for the moments I took for granted and the bitterness of today. Take me away to better days...